How the rest of my birthday turned out...

Well, I couldn't get the vanilla vodka because the SAQ was out of it. But I got the sushi, and it was just the thing I needed to lift my spirits...Sushi fixes all ills. However I ate way too much of it, and ended up in much, much pain....oh, but it was soooooo worth it...LOL So I had a good birthday after all.

Still waiting...

Well, we still haven't heard any news from the guy in Medicine Hat, but Gilles called him around Noon, and left a message saying, "If it's true that I keep my vacation, seniority, and pension, then yes, I'll take the job."

So in that case I'm sure we'll hear back from him soon. If that is the case, I am going to have a lot of furniture for sale...so those of you who read this either on my blog or on Facebook, pay attention. We're not sure of prices yet, but here's a starting list of what will be for sale.

• Couch (complete with kitty chewing marks), and love-seat (may be sold as set, or separately.
• Another love-seat/hide-a-bed
• 27 inch TV (old, but still works well)
• Single bed frame with matching bedside table and dresser (mattress included)
• Double bed frame with matching his and hers dressers (mattress included and we might have the box spring too, I don't remember)
• Maple kitchen table with glass protective top and extension with 6 matching chairs
• Riding Lawn mower
• snow blower
• 3 bookshelves
• 2 TV stands
• possibly a stereo set with speakers (am/fm radio only, but it's a box where you connect all your other elements through it i.e. DVD, CD, Video, etc.)
• Apartment size piano

That's just for starters...we will also be sorting through toys, books, clothes, and whatever else is not necessary for us to take with us. I'll keep everyone posted, and let you know for sure when we're ready to start selling stuff.

Day is getting better...

LOL...my husband wants to help lift my mood, so he gave me money to go and get Vanilla Vodka and sushi... Sushi makes everything better! :D

Happy Birthday to me...

Today is my 31st birthday, and I have the birthday blahs...I think it doesn't help that it's cloudy and a bit rainy. Just another day of the year...same old routines, same old crap...I want to curl up in my bed and sleep until tomorrow.

Waiting, waiting...

So we're still awaiting confirmation of all the details for the position in Medicine Hat. Oh I hate the waiting part...meanwhile, I'm trying to work on decluttering things that I don't need so that I don't have to stress at the last minute. It seems the houses around here, once put on the market, sell very quickly, so I may end up not having much time to pack and stuff after all; I don't know.

I'm excited, nervous, anxious all at the same time. But I found out that Medicine Hat does in fact have a pagan community, and I've already joined the e-list to start getting to know people right away. I was reading the blog of one Member, Fern, and it seems we have quite a bit in common... We like the same music, same kind of novels, and we both like to bellydance...oh yeah, we're both Geminis too. Yay...maybe I'll be able to take bellydancing out there. Woo Hoo!

Good news, and bad news (kind of)

Well, Gilles has been off work since March 30, and the job hunt has not been going very well. But this morning he got a call from his old boss from the Valleyfield GoodYear Plant, and it turns out he has a job available for Gilles in Medicine Hat, AB. $29/hr, and he gets to keep his seniority, his vacation, and his pension plan. We're just waiting for the guy to call back to confirm the details. The good part is, if Gilles accepts the job (and it looks like he's going to), we won't have to rush to get there. The guy said if we need 6 months to make the move, then the job will still be there.

I have mixed feelings, but I'm more excited than anything. I just hope there's a pagan community in Medicine Hat.

Peace...nice weather...very happy

So all the renovations in the house are finally done, and it looks amazing...I still have the "wow factor" everytime I walk into the kitchen... I have a stainless steel sink!!!!!

Gilles is still looking for work, but in the meantime, he's taking steps to upgrade some of his skills. He's taking a course this weekend and next weekend, and he has a couple of construction and certification cards to get

My moods are doing well. I'm more stable, but still get very tired very easily! I've still been napping in the afternoons, but I'm able to stay up later at night. So now I'm going to try and skip the nap and go to bed earlier.

My garden has gone wild... things have spread, and I don't know what I want to remove, and what I want to keep... I know I have to divide the hostas as they are taking up more and more space... I might just rip them out altogether...I hate hosta...I don't really find they are particularly pretty...I like pretty flowers like Irises and Morning Glories. Overly leafy plants piss me off!!!

chaos...

Well, my house has been in chaos for the last couple of weeks, but for good reason. Gilles has been installing new laminate flooring, and it looks amazing. He just finished the last of it last night, and I am amazed at how much better it looks than the old floor. We also picked a darker color so that the dirt won't show up so quickly...ha ha ha. Next, Gilles will replace the counters and the sink in the kitchen...ooooh...I will finally have a stainless steel sink!

Renovations en masse!!!

So we're in the process of doing renovations to the house in case we have to sell, but we're also choosing things that meet with our tastes in case we don't have to sell. So far we have replaced the broken toilet in the laundry room, and Gilles is in the process of replacing the laminate flooring in the boys' rooms. We have also ordered new counters for the kitchen due to the fact that somebody tried to set the counter on fire when she was pregnant with her second son (we won't mention any names here...LOL). We've bought a nice stainless steel sink and faucets to replace the white plastic sink we have that stains so horribly. Then the next big project will be the floors from the hallway to the rec room (that also includes kitchen, dining, and living rooms.)

Oh, I would love to have a bigger house, but not if it would mean I'd have to settle for a smaller back yard.

Misc.

I made it to Mykah's appointment at the Shriner's hospital yesterday with both kids in tow. The wait was long, but the Doctor came in the examining room as soon as I got in there. He had some x-rays done to see the progress of Mykah's foot since he's been walking and it's good news all around. First, the left (clubbed) foot is looking very good. Second the bones in the right foot that were out of place have shifted since Mykah has started walking. That means he will probably still need surgery to correct the heel bone, but the surgery will be minor compared to what they would have had to do if the foot hadn't started to self-correct. I have to go to J.E. Hangar to get an orthotic made, and I'm going to have to start forcing Mykah to wear shoes during the day... he HATES shoes.

Lay-off and dreaming.

So with Gilles impending lay-off from GoodYear, we are starting to look at our options. No matter what we decide, though, I think we're going to end up selling this house. It would be nice to eventually have a slightly bigger house (a basement would be nice), but I am soooooo going to miss the back yard we have here. We have 15,000 sqft of property, and it's so peaceful... I love summers here. I just hope that whatever we choose that we end up with a larger living space, and a yard that's just as beautiful or more.

My dream is to have a 2-storey house with 4 bedrooms, office space, and a separate place for the kids' toys. In terms of yard space, I would sooooo love to have 1/2 acre or more...with lots of mature trees..

Funny thing

So I had to stop watching all of the new surrounding the death of Anna Nicole Smith...not that I follow celebrities with any passion or anything. But the whole circus...court cases... paternity disputes and shit was starting to depress me.

What was getting to me was the baby...losing her mom at such a young age, and feeling like all these stupid men are not interested in the baby, but in the money the baby will inherit. I just hope that baby ends up with a parent or caregive who will truly love and cherish her.

Okay, that's the mom in me speaking and I've ranted enough.

Positive thinking works.

I've had a rough few days since it seems my medications have been causing some nausea. I though it was because, silly me, I was taking them on an empty stomach, but even taking them with meals wasn't helping. So I decided to try positive thought to solve the problem. First I eat, and then I hold my pills in my hand and say "These pills balance my emotions and make me feel good." I repeat it until I feel it is true, I say "Thank you", and then I take my pills. I've been doing this for 2 days, and I've been nausea-free for 2 days... there's positive thinking in action for you.

Valentine's day

I had such a nice Valentine's Day. Gilles came home with a rose for me (I love red roses), and Sushi for supper... yummmmm. I am a sushi-whore! It was as romantic as it could be with 2 pre-schoolers running around ha ha..

I love my sweetie so much. I'm so grateful to have you, babe!

WOW!!!

I am feeling absolutely incredible! My emotions have finally stabilized thanks to the new medication, and I'm a functioning person again. Now I just have to work hard to break some bad habits I developed all the years I was not well. But I love a challenge.

Mykah is a full-fledged walker, and he's already attemting to run. It's so funny to see him walking because he's so small. Finding pants for him is still a challenge; his legs are so short that he can still wear 9month pants. He's cute as a button and smart as a whip.

Transitions...

It's official... Mykah is finally making the transition to toddler. At 25 months old, he is finally starting to walk independently! And although it means double-checking all the new things he can reach to make sure everything is still child-proof, because a toddler can get into so much more trouble (ha ha), Gilles and I are thrilled.

Mykah is absolutely thrilled with himself too. He comes walking into the room and goes, "hi Di di" (this is what he calls me...I don't know why). He even walks short distances carrying toys, and his confidence is great. He's got a bit of a limp, but I think that will go when he has the surgery to correct his right foot.

I'm so happy!

My return to the human race...

I am finally starting to feel normal again! I think we may have hit the right levels of the right medication for my brain! It's as if I've been in a fog for the past 5 years, and it's finally lifted. I am able to concentrate enough to actually start reading again, and I am so happy about that; I've read 3 books in the past week alone.

I am interacting better with my children; I am actually enjoying them all the time now. I've also been able to manage to take over some more of the housework without feeling overwhelmed. Now, I'm also keeping my kitchen clean all the time, cooking meals (and planning leftovers for hubby's lunches), laundry, keeping bathrooms clean, etc. All of this was on my husband's plate before because I couldn't concentrate enough to handle it, so now he's got less responsibility and less stress, and I'm more satisfied by my daily accomplishments. Yay!!!!!

Bad news...

It looks like GoodYear will be laying off 900 people, and, of course, this will affect my husband. As far as we know now, he will work until March 30th, and then that's it. It's stressful, but he seems confident he will easily find another job. There are many options open, so I think it's just a matter of deciding which one will be best for our family.

Things are going well...

First, we celebrated Mykah's 2nd birthday on December 25th. I can't believe my baby's already 2 years old. Since he's so small for his age, I sometimes forget how old he is. He's still not walking independantly yet, but he is cruising around on the furniture quite a bit, and occasionally takes a couple of steps without holding on. He is trying his hardest, and I've accepted that he will just walk when he is ready to do so, and not a moment before!

I am starting to feel better and better; I think we are finally getting somewhere with my medications. I still get tired very easily, though, but I think that's due to a lack of proper exercise which I intend to change very soon!

First 2007 post...

Okay, where do I start? After a bad end to 2006 what with me going into a bad depression, self-medicating with alcohol, and things just getting bad, things are really starting to look up.

First, I saw my Psychiatrist on Dec 21st, and he did a complete rearrangement of the meds and told me to stop drinking. Okay, I didn't listen to that part which led to my loving family giving me an ultimatum (Thank you, I'm so glad you love me so much). Which in turn led to me stopping the drinking (it also helped that my hubby hid the vodka and took away my car keys) No, I was not driving under the influence, he just didn't want me to be able to go buy more booze.

Stop drinking, and the medication has a chance to work properly. There was one medication he prescribed to help me sleep that I had to stop taking because it was just keeping me in a Zombie-like state. I've been starting to feel a little bit better every day this week! Yay!

Today, I feel like a million bucks! My kitchen is pretty much spotless, and I've done 4 loads of laundry (put it away too) on top of that. I really pray that this is me starting to feel better and not just another manic phase starting!