Dreams...recurring theme

I have been dreaming a lot lately about sea mammals, particularly Dolphins and Orcas. One involves a swimming pool that is open in the day, and at night, the water level drops to reveal a large enclosed tank with Orcas swimming in it...that has been a recurring dream, but the other night I got a tour of the administration side of the enclosure...like a stone cave but brightly lit.

Last night I dreamt about dolphins. I was walking along a boardwalk, and to my left I could see a dozen dead, decaying dolphins in a huge orange body bag. I felt angry and indignant, and wanted to find out what had happened to them...I was also sad at the loss of these dolphins, because it was obvious they had not died of natural causes. I found myself at the edge of a large, deep tank, and the dolphins came to me telling me they loved me; I jumped into the water with them, touching their smooth skin, feeling wonder, and joy at this experience. but that was ruined when I realized that the "dolphin killer"was coming. I told the dolphins they had to leave, and I was afraid for them. But they couldn't leave because there was a large cage surrounding us, and we couldn't find the exit.

Feeling decent for a change...

I saw my Psychiatrist on Friday, and he switched around all my meds. I'm down to 50mg of Paxil, 2mg of Clonazepam, still at 1500mg of Valproic Acid, and up to 125mg of Seroquel. I've also started taking a bee pollen supplement, and I think it's helping me to have a bit more energy. Due to the med changes, I kind of felt lousy over the weekend, but today, I did a lot more stuff than I've done over the past 3 months. I finished laying down the hay over my Vegetable garden, and I helped Gilles a bit with putting the leaves in bags...LOL so far we have 47 full bags of leaves, plus he put a large pile in an area to try and make compost over the winter. I still get tired easily, and my feet and my back get sore rather quickly. My back is still painful from the fall I took out of my bed...I hope it goes away soon. Anyway, I'm proud of what I accomplished today.