Made a new friend...

When I was out shopping for shoes for Mykah the other night, I also made a new friend. There's a girl who works at Fairview who is a Little Person, and I've had so many questions. She was happy to speak with me, and she even gave me her number if I have any other questions. She's about my age, and she's so nice. She was thrilled to meet Mykah, and happy to answer all my questions.

Adventures in baby shoe shopping...

I went to Fairview last night to do some shopping. I had to get a gift for a friend, and I had to buy shoes for Mykah. It was pretty funny trying to find shoes to fit him. I went to Panda to get his feet measured, and to see if I could get his shoes there. The smallest pair they had was a size 2 for babies, and it was way too big for him. So, the sales person told me I should check at Brown's... well, that wasn't helpful either as the smallest baby shoes they carry at Brown's are size 3. I finally found a pair of suitable shoes (I hope) at Payless...size 1...very tiny and unbearably cute. Hopefully, they will be suitable... it was the only pair in Mykah's size. So, at least now he has shoes for when his orthotic is ready... I think I'll get the call from J.E. Hangar next week.

Dwarfism...or Skeletal Dysplasia

I have been doing research on Dwarfism, also called Skeletal Dysplasia. First of all, I had no idea there were so many different forms of dwarfism...over 200 different conditions...wow!

I've been researching it, because of Mykah's growth and development delay...they will be checking him for dwarfism. Now, I know that only a doctor will be able to diagnose for sure, but I'm starting to wonder due to a few factors.

1. has dropped under the 5th percentile growth curve
2. his head circumference is in the 50th percentile
3. he was born with misshapen feet (one clubbed, and one with a reverse arch)
4. his wrists seem double-jointed (they snap when he moves them quickly)
5. he has wicked "hitch-hiker's thumbs"
6. he's extremely flexible (he sleeps with his feet up at his ears)

The most common form of dwarfism is , Anachondroplasia and that is usually very apparent right from birth. But there are other forms that are not really detectable until a child starts dropping off the growth curve (within the first couple of years of life)... Hypochondroplasia for one

Bleh...

I saw my doctor on Monday, and I finally consented to try the Lithium. I'm tired of having unpredicable mood swings, and am hoping that the Lithium will have the effect my doctor seems to think it will have. My body is protesting slightly to the new meds...I feel dizzy and a little nauseous...I really hope this works.

More consultations, more tests...

Well, yesterday was a very full day. Mykah had his regular check-up for his feet at the Shriner's. His left foot (the one that was clubbed) is doing great. His right foot (the one that hasn't had treatment so far) is some kind of "Torsal flexion" can't remember the exact term the doctor used... any way, long story short, he will need to wear a special arch support during the day to help correct it. His feet and shoulders have grown a little, so he needed new night time shoes and a new bar for the shoes (for an idea of the type of shoes he wears at night, click here.)

Now, the less pleasant news is that I put him on the scale at the Shriner's, and he's only up to 16lbs 14.5 oz. Also, the doctor who treats his feet wants us to see the Geneticists at the Shriner's for a consultation...to find out why he's under weight, and why he's behind in his physical development (gross motor skills)

Stupid ISP...

So, I haven't been able to blog for a couple of days. I've been having trouble with my Internet Connection; apparently there's a lot of resistance on my line, and they have to do some tweaks and tests...blah, blah, blah. I've been having problems ever since I got my new modem, but it's just been getting progressively worse. I guess whatever they're doing to fix it is having some effect, because today I actually managed to be able to download something, and I'm actually able to surf the web at a fairly reasonable speed...still not what it should be, but much better than what I had ended up with before calling tech support. Anyway, I'll see if this has any effect, and if it doesn't improve drastically, I am sooooooooo switching over to Videotron!

Where did yesterday go?

So, I didn't really accomplish anything of substance yesterday; I think I managed to wash a couple of dishes and clean off the table...that's it. In fact, I'm not even sure what I did do yesterday...it's a blur...Well, I slept until almost 10:30, blogged, got Zach out of bed, fed him, and set up the Dora DVD for him...but other than that, I can't really remember....strange... I do know that I was very tired yesterday, and put Zachy for quiet time in his room around 3pm...then I was abruptly awaken at 5:30 by my husband in a panick because he didn't know I had kept Zachy at home, and he thought I was late picking him up. He scared the crap out of me!!! He relaxed when I told him Zach was in his room. Then Gilles had to go out to his mother's, so I was on my own with Zach (Mykah's at my Mom's).

Anyway, Zach fell asleep on the couch around 8PM, and I carried him to bed, then...I don't remember. Gilles got home around 8:30, and we spent some time talking and watching TV.

This morning, my alarm was set for 6:30AM...guess what...I had to get up at 5AM, because Zach was wide-awake and full of energy...oh well... had good strong coffee, and got to work by 8AM.

Today's plans...

Well, I was supposed to go to work today, but after having to wake up with Zach at 3AM, and him not falling back to sleep until 5AM, the plans have changed. Also, his schedule is now all messed up, so I'm keeping him home today. That way, he'll skip his afternoon nap, and go to bed, hopefully, at a decent hour tonight. So, if he cooperates by being a nice little boy today, here's my to do list.

• Laundry (wash, dry, fold, AND put away)
• kitchen counters (clear off junk and wash)
• kitchen table (clear off junk and wash)
• dishes (wash, dry, and put away)
• wash dish rack and mat
• bleach and wax the sink (yeah, I know this one sounds strange, but I have a white porous sink that looks very grungy if not bleached every once in a while. The wax is to keep it from getting stained again too quickly)

That's it to start. If I can get all of that done, I'll be happy. I'd also like to start work on my husband's christmas present. I'm making a fleece shirt for him. I would have started earlier, but I couldn't get the sewing machine working...my Mom came over on Sunday and showed me how to fix it. I had it threaded completely wrong; but to my credit, my mom said that it's a finnicky machine and is set up all backwards anyway (it's a really old machine). But, once threaded properly, it sews like a dream, and hopefully I'll end up making something that at least resembles a nice shirt-- it's my first sewing project. ha ha... wish me luck.

Spare Bedroom...

The baby's room is starting to look pretty good, although I still have a lot of junk to get out of here... oh my, how things accumulate. I recycled a whole pile of magazines, so I ended up filling 4 bins with paper for recycling. The closet looks a whole lot better, and all of my craft supplies (cross-stitch, knitting, etc) are up out of Zachy's reach.

So, half of the room looks great, while the other half of the room still needs quite a bit of work. I kind of got sidetracked, because Zachy did something to my computer, and I had to try and resolve it. I think I fixed most of it, but I'm still can't download updates from mcafee.com. When I try to update, Internet Explorer crashes and shuts down...strange, because I can download things from other sites; it's just that one thing that's giving me problems.

Manic...

I am definitely having a hypomanic episode! I've been up at 5AM every morning this week, and that's without setting the alarm! Plus, I'm waking at night and having trouble getting back to sleep...and I actually feel great!

Yesterday, I completely rearranged the furniture in the computer/baby's room, and cleared all of the clutter off of the various surfaces, dumping it all in the baby's crib (it's okay, the baby is visiting with my Mom until tomorrow).

Today, I started clearing out the closet (around 7AM). Now, I'm in the process of sorting all of the clutter in this room (the crib is full to the top). I've already filled two 12w x 18L x 8 H bins with papers for recycling, and I'm going for a third!

Is it possible?

I made it to work for 9AM today. Wow, I actually was up at a decent hour. So, now to the transcripts. I still only have the one tape to work on; side A is done, and I'm starting side B. If there are no more tapes waiting, I'll be able to stay home tomorrow and Friday.

Lazy day...

So, I was supposed to go to work today. Thank goodness for a flexible schedule, because I took one look at the weather outside, and went back to bed! I had a very TV day...that is, I was a couch potato today, sitting on the couch, watching TV, and working on my cross-stitch projects. So, it wasn't totally unproductive, just not productive in terms of housework. I did, however, manage to put together a good supper for the family, so that is a major accomplishment in itself, as I rarely manage to plan meals. (I've made supper for two days in a row now.)

Efficient people piss me off...

You know those people who have every thing in order... their houses are immaculate, their gardens perfect, their lives very structured and full of self-discipline? Yeah, those people. They piss me off to no end, because I just can't figure out how they do it! They piss me off, because they are masters of self-discipline, and seem to do it so effortlessly, and I just can't even to seem to succeed at adding one simple little consistent routine into my life. No, I don't hate organized people...I admire them.

My life is a whirlwhind of chaos. I can't seem to get up at the same time every morning, which then messes up any attempt I make at establishing a morning routine. I know it comes down to a matter of self-discipline too, and I'll admit, I have a serious deficiency in that area. So, how does one go about teaching oneself self-discipline? Is it actually possible to do it on one's own? Does it require a coach to hold one's hand at the beginning, gradually easing the grip once the trainee begins to master basic self-discipline? If so, where do I start? or where do I find such a coach? I am currently at a loss to know where or how to begin.

Good news...

So, Mykah's sweat test was negative. As for the blood test, I didn't formally get the results of that, but considering that the follow-up with Gastrointerology isn't until Dec. 2, I'm pretty sure there wasn' t anything major in the blood either. Yay. I think Mykah is just a small baby, and will grow at his own pace. Recently, I've actually run into quite a few mothers with children doing the same thing, and I think this generation of children is just smaller... I don't know.

No news is good news??

Well, we still haven't heard anything about Mykah's blood test and sweat test, so I'm hoping that it's a good sign. I'd still like to hear one way or the other, but they say no news is good news, right?

On another note, we had an appointment at the Shriner's hospital; a follow up on his formerly clubbed foot. His left foot is doing very nicely, and looks almost perfect. However, he has a bone in his right foot that may eventually require surgery to correct. For the time-being, we are still working on the foot with stretching exercises to see if we can get it to correct itself.

Hospital tests...

Waiting is the absolute worst part of hospital tests!!! Not so much the waiting in the hospital, but it's the waiting for the test results that really sucks. My husband and I are on pins and needles, as Mykah had to have a full blood work-up today, and a...gulp...sweat test. For those who don't know, the sweat test is to screen for Cystic Fibrosis... we are very nervous for the results. Mykah is 10 months old and yet he is still swimming in 6-month clothing. He has raspy breathing that sounds like he constantly has mucous in his chest, and he eats like a horse but does not gain weight. Please send prayers, and love and light.

So pathetic...

Okay, so I am now officially a really pathetic dog-owner. I felt so sorry for Goliath, watching him walk around outside to do his business, then sitting in the grass shivering with cold. Yes, I'm pathetic... today, I went out and bought him a doggie coat, doggie sweater, and yes... I said it was pathetic... doggie boots. I'm so ashamed... but it's going to look so cute. Okay, I'm going to go and beat myself over the head now.

Weird dreams...

I have been having some really weird dreams lately. What I don't understand is that I'm dreaming about different men from my hubbie. I love my hubby dearly, but I guess I need to figure out what I'm getting in these dreams from these other men that I need, but may not be getting from my hubbie. That way, I can articulate to him what I need... need to do some serious analyzing.

Back to the grind...

Oh... I had to get up for work this morning... argh... so hard to leave the house so early. I do love my job, I just wish I could do some of it from home. Oh well. This at least gives people a chance to get to know me, and who knows where that could eventually go.

New Addiction...

Oh dear, I bought some PC games, and I'm totally addicted. I bought MYST URU: complete chronicles, MYST III Exile, MYST IV Revelation, MYST V End of Ages, and Black and White 2. So far, I'm completely hooked, and I've only just begun MYST URU.

Goliath...

So, I finally got my puppy, and his name is Goliath... big name... he's a Bichon Maltais...LOL. I really would have preferred a large breed. I want an Irish Wolfhound some day. But, my husband prefers to have a smaller breed, so, I saw Goliath, and fell in love. He actually looks like Benji, our family dog when I was growing up, who just passed away last year. The only difference is Goliath is smaller, and white. Benji was beige, and he was a Lhasa Apso/Poodle mix.

Thunder and Ebony (my cats) are kind of looking at Goliath going, *WTF*, is this lunch? Zach is thrilled, and he seems very aware that Goliath is tiny, so he has to be gentle.

Different...

So, I saw the strangest thing last night. We are lucky to live in a more "country setting", so the soil is purer, and the air seems fresher. We have lots of little toads around; I see them frequently at night, especially at this time of year. Well, last night, one little toady hopped right up beside my foot; it let me pick it up without freaking out... And I noticed, this little toady only had one eye. At first I thought that maybe it had been injured, and the eye was just permanently closed. But as I took a closer look, I realized that there wasn't even any indication that the second eye had even existed. I think it developed this way or something; it was pretty cool. So, I put him back down in the garden, and I was totally cooled out.

So, I started my new job, and I love it. It's nice to have a job where it's totally flexible, and I can sit and focus on the work at hand without interruptions. The only difficult part, I've found, is getting the baby back and forth from my Mom's. But I think we've found a solution for that; Mom will keep him for 2 weeks straight, then I will bring him home for the 3rd week... that way, I don't have to make the hour-long drive quite so often.

Today, I've decided to take a day for myself. I have to get Zach up and off to daycare, but then, the rest of the morning is entirely mine.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee...

I got the job!!!! Yay! I start on Tuesday. I found out about this on Wednesday, and I am so excited, but then proceeded into a slight panic, as I realized I had nothing really appropriate for the office that fits me anymore. Since having the children, my body has changed considerably. The office clothes I do have are a ridiculous size 3... yes, sick, I know... I really find it difficult to believe I was ever that tiny. Also, my feet have changed a full size, and all of my dress shoes are size 6... I am now a 7. Then, there's the bra issue... that is just so frustrating on so many levels!!! I have many that used to kind of fit... but now, after 2 babies... frustration sets in again... I really hate shopping for bras... mostly because it seems most stores don't carry anything that remotely even fits!

So Yesterday, I went shopping! I got a gorgeous long black blazer, that will go with anything I wear. i really need to look professional in this job since I will be working with Lawyers, and since my desk is apparently right outside the CEO's office.

Then, I actually found bras that more-or-less fit... well, at least I don't fall out of them if I bend over... could have used a bigger cup size, but alas, none to be found over DD... dammit!

And shoes... I really must commend the people who determine "fashion" in shoes this year... it seems that sexy heels are in... the catch... they all have rounded toes... so, they're actually very comfortable! I love high heels, but hate painful toes... These shoes are awesome!!!!

Aha...

Well, at least I now know why I've been feeling like crap over the past couple of days.... I was awakened at 3am with a stabbing pain in my ear... I'm fighting yet another ear infection! Luckily I still had some drops left over from the last ear infection, so I put them in right away. I had to go out this morning to buy more drops, and I'm really hoping I can get this cleared up without having to take antibiotics... again... it hasn't even been 2 months since the last one...grrrrr. I never used to have ear infections until I got pregnant with Zach.... then, it's like being pregnant completely altered my body chemistry forever in such a way that makes me susceptible to ear infections.

My Kitchen...

Actually looks decent for a change. I still have a few things to clear off from the counters, but it's looking much better. I just don't know where the day has gone, though... I feel as if I should have accomplished more. I'm feeling a bit better, although the sight of food is still making me ill.

Sad but relaxed...

I'm so sad that I missed my CMS grad ritual last night. I had been looking forward to it so much, but I just couldn't get out of the house. I was feeling nauseous all day, and had "the runs" to top it all off, and I was absolutely exhausted. I feel asleep around 4:30 since Zach was asleep on the couch. Gilles let me sleep until 6:30, but needed help with the kids. Once the kids were settled, I went back to bed... I slept from 8PM right through the night. I even had difficulty getting out of bed this morning.

But, I did manage to get out of bed, and get Zachy off to his first day at daycare. He didn't cry when I left, so that was a good sign. I really hope he'll start speaking more French as a result of this

Another stolen quiz

People see anger in your eyes. You are probably a
good person, but you have a quick temper. You
may sometimes find yourself snapping at your
friends or family. People should know not to
piss you off, but be careful. Your temper could
cause you to do or say something that you
really don't mean.


What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
brought to you by Quizilla

quiz from airea and scarlet...

MYSTIC BEAUTY - You are eccentric, enigmatic, and
intriguing. You keep to yourself and so no one
knows the real you. You prefer the solace and
quiet of your own company over big crowds of
people. You are highly intelligent but you do
everything your own way. You come off as quirky
or weird and most people don't understand you
at all. You are probably a little disorganized.
You probably also seem distant and dreamy but
that's because you're off in your own little
world.


What type of beauty do you possess? (20 questions + 7 results + pretty pics)
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Heard about the job...

So, the company who interviewed me has delayed making their decision until the end of August. Apparently they really like me, but just want to make sure they make the right decision, since it's for the legal department... they don't want to rush. They plan on interviewing at least one other person. So, it's not yes... yet, but it's not no either. I'm not worried. If I'm meant to do this, it will work out... if I don't get the job, then the Universe just has other plans for me.

Ow, Ow, Ow!!!

I think I broke a bone in my foot. I hit it on the wooden leg on one of our sofas yesterday... I hit it HARD!!!! It hurts to walk, and it even hurts to put my sandals on.

Zachary was so cute when I hit my foot, though. I was in tears, and he came to me and said, "What matter, Mama?" I told him I hurt my foot, and he patted my shoulder, said, "Don't cry, Mama? it ok!" Then he kissed my foot and said, "Better, Mama?" It was so sweet.

Shock, Shoes, Stupidity, and Silence...

Shock: Last night, my 2-1/2 (actually almost 3) year old son put himself to bed. The bar was down on the crib (yes, he likes his crib still), and he pushed a stool over to the crib, climed in and fell asleep. His bedtime is 9PM, but last night we decided to let him stay up a bit later as he was being really good, and had a long nap in the afternoon. I heard him pushing something around in his bedroom around 9:15PM, but didn't bother to check, because I thought he was just getting his blankie out of his crib. At 9:30, I checked on him, and there he was fast asleep in his crib. Yes, I was shocked, and amazed... it's a sign of maturity... he recognized that he was tired, and he went to bed. WOW!!!

Shoes: Today we had our appointment at the Shriners' hospital for Mykah. His foot is doing well, and we had to get the shoes refitted.

Stupidity: I still haven't heard anything from the placement agency about that job. The woman said she'd call me either way today. finally, I called at 3pm... she's not even in the office today... well, I guess I shouldn't call it stupidity... but I just want to know.

Silence: Alas, both the boys are napping, and hubbie has gone to work, so it's nice and quiet around here... yay... time for myself!!! I stopped by the Melange Magique today to pick up my Dragon's Blood oil. Heh heh... I also got a couple of books, and I can't wait to start reading them!!!!

Busy tomorrow...

I have a feeling tomorrow will be a busy day. I have an appointment at the Shriner's Hospital for Mykah at 10AM, and then I want to stop by the Melange Magique to pick up some Dragon's Blood oil. By the time I get home, I should also know if I get the job too.

As for housework, I'd like to focus on:

• continue to clear off kitchen counters
• sort cosmetics and toilettries (organize good, and pitch old stuff)

And sometime this week, I'm going to have to go out and buy a blazer for work (none of my old blazers fit me... still have to lose more weight), a bra or two that actually fit, and an attractive pair of shoes for working.

I'm on Pins and Needles...

...waiting to hear if I got a job. I had an interview yesterday, and I really want this job. Basically it's dictaphone work (typing out notes from cassette). It's 3 days a week, and at a really awesome company.

My husband thinks I'm crazy to go back to work now, especially because I could still collect Maternity benefits until December. I wasn't going to accept anything until January, but when I heard what this job involved, and where it is, I made an exception.

Husbands...

Ok, I'll admit it... sometimes my husband actually knows things that I don't... shhhhh... don't tell him I said that, because it might go to his head.

He pulled out a bag of clothes for Zach that I thought wouldn't fit, and lo and behold, som of the clothing actually fits Zach... ooops.

Wow!!!

I think I may actually have completed all the work for my CMS Level 1 course! Yay!!! It's about time too, I think I started it 2 years ago??? Scarlet has been so wonderfully patient with me.

If all goes well, I want to do Level 2, but this time, I want to try and do it in person (as opposed to via correspondence) in order to keep me on track with the course work, and for the group experience.

Toddler activity not recommended...

LOL, so my husband decides the other day to go for a nap without telling me... I was on the PC thinking he was looking after Zach, and when I finished, I decided to go see what they were doing. So I walk into my son's room only to find him sitting on the Sewing machine table... My son, the sewing table, and the changing table were COVERED in the zinc oxide cream.... He had managed to open the pot of cream, and emptied the entire contents!! I said "What are you doing?", Zach said "paintin', mama"

That stuff does not come off easily. My husband got up and washed Zach, while I washed down Zach's room! Then I proceeded to try and get the zinc cream out of the clothes that were on the sewing table... I had to wash them 3 times in HOT water.

I'm proud of myself, though... I didn't get angry. Actually it was hilarious... I'm still laughing about it, and can't wait to get the pictures developed!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

So much for blogging regularly...

Man, life is so hectic with kids. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids and wouldn't give them up for anything... I just wish I had more time for me, and for my husband.

Kamikazee.....

Ha ha... Mykah has gotten to that stage in discovering his voice where he lets out these shrieks that sound like Kamikazee war cries... it's so funny. Now he's babbling, and chewing on his toes... mmmmm yummy toes!!
It's so amazing to watch how a baby finds delight in the simplest little things.

Mind racing...

I have so much going on in my head right now, specifically regarding what I want to do with my life. I know it's going to involve going back to school, but I just can't seem to narrow in on a specific field. Some of the things I'm looking at are:

• Nutritional Consultant
• Reiki Practitioner
• Massage Therapist
• Yoga Instructor
• Psychologist
• Writer

The interesting part is that I could actually incorporate all of that together, but where to start? I also want to continue with my spiritual studies, and incorporate that into my future career. I am so confused and unfocused right now.

Hot, Hot, Hot...

Oh, it's so hot out today...again. I really hope my hubbie invests in an air-conditioning unit, at least for the kitchen. But I have a feeling that will have to wait until next summer. Oh well, at least the house stays relatively cool provided I close the windows and pull the shades in the early AM. Mykah gets really uncomfortable in this heat. I've taken to wetting a facecloth with cool water and laying it on his chest... that seems to help quite a bit... He also gets relief when I put him in his baby swing... gives him a nice cool breeze.

Poor Jack is lethargic with the heat too. He's a Bernese Mountain Dog, but we have him shaved for the summer, and it's a good thing too, or else he'd really be suffering.

Well, I'm having a more productive day today, but not actually getting as much done as I had hoped. At least the family will have clean clothes... I really need to vacuum, but I think I'll wait until tonight when it's a little cooler (I hope).

Angelic voice...

I'm sitting here at the computer, and my 6-month old son is in his crib beside me. He's starting to play with his voice, and it is so sweet to listen to. I swear he's already saying "ma ma".

I'm still not accomplishing anything... well, I did strip down the bed and wash the sheets. However, I have a ton of things I could be doing, and no motivation to start. Sometimes I just really want to give up. Who cares if the house is dirty... clean it, and it just gets dirty again... why bother folding the laundry? It's just going to get unfolded, worn, and need washing again...

Oh man, I'm in a really bad head-space right now. I really need to get some more Dragon's Blood oil!!!

What to do?

I am restless, bored, and generally frustrated, because I feel as if my life is going nowhere. I am disorganized, un-disciplined, and I don't know how to change that. I want to change it, but how does such an unstructured person even begin to become structured. I need a mentor, someone who can work very closely with me at first, gradually letting go so I can learn to do things on my own... someone who can firmly guide me into starting routines (I'm thinking army boot camp kind of attitude). My house is a mess, my yard is a mess, and my brain is a mess!!!

So tired...

I'm so tired of feeling this way... tired of having to rely on medication to maintain a "good" mood... that's not true living...it's just barely existing! I'm tired of feeling as if my life is going nowhere... tired of not knowing what I want to do beyond raising my kids... I want a good job that I'll love...

Bleh...

My head still feels so foggy. I don't know what I was thinking...guess I wasn't. I went through a bout where I kept forgetting to take my meds. After realizing that I had forgotten 4 days in a row, I thought, "Hey, I've forgotten 4 days, maybe I can just stop taking them." DUMB IDEA!!!! After almost 3 weeks without meds, I had a crash and burn. I was angry and agressive on Tuesday, and then ended up in tears, sobbing, unable to function. Luckily my parents were able to come and help me out, and they ended up taking me to Mom's to stay for a couple of days. I hate this, though, will this mean I'm going to be on meds for the rest of my life? This sucks.

Another Meme... stolen from Scarlet

Fill in the blanks:
1. If I could just figure out how to keep up with 2 kids and all the housework, I'd be real happy.
2. I would be happy to hand over cleaning bathrooms to someone else.
3. One thing I try to do every day is to shower.
4. Someone once told me that I was very unpredictable and hard-to-follow.
5. Probably the one word/phrase I tend to overuse is probably CRAP! .
6. I need to work on my emotional stability...I have too many ups and downs... it would be nice to be even-keeled for once.
7. When I'm cleaning house I like to listen to Death Metal... I don't know, it just gets me in the mood to clean.

Starting over...names will be changed.

So, I'm starting my blog completely over. I wasn't completely satisfied with it, and also, some recent personal events required that I removed certain things from my blog (for safety), so it was just easier to start over.... crap.

I'm hoping to post a little more often.... well, at least more consistently.