D-day

Yes, today is D-day... "Douglas Day" Today I will finally find out what's happening in my totally f---ed up brain. Maybe after today life will start getting back to normal (not that I have any idea what normal is for me anymore). Hopefully we will find a better combination of meds for me so I can stop being so depressed. I've had a few "highs" in the past, and I'm hoping that those "highs" are actually what's normal for me. Otherwise I'm telling the doctor that I want him to find a way to keep me on a constant "high." LOL...yeah, I know that there are ways to do that on my own, but I'd prefer something legal thank you very much.