A decent weekend...

So the weekend was pretty good... Gilles and I actually managed to work together getting the house cleaned up without getting on each others' nerves...LOL... we're growing as a couple...yay!!!
Dad's girlfriend is really nice...I asked her, "So what's a nice lady like you doing with my father?"

Today, I'm doing some work on my new business venture. I'm excited, because I already have 3 business overview conference calls scheduled for this week. BTW, if anyone's interested in a free, no-obligation information call, let me know.

Also, I have to really focus on decluttering Mykah's room. Gilles is starting to plaster the walls today, and will be painting it this week. It's definitely better than it was, but still needs more work.

My weekend...

Well, I think the kids are finally over whatever bug it was that they had. Although Mykah's still got a bit of the runs, at least he's in a much better mood than he's been.

I'm a bit upset because I missed CMS class again yesterday; I just couldn't talk myself into driving downtown on St. Jean/Grand Prix weekend. Everytime I thought about actually going, I was going into full-blown panic attacks!

Yesterday we moved the computer desk into the living room, and I'm so happy about that. Previously, the PC was in Mykah's room, and it was just getting to be a pain in the butt. I couldn't use the PC at all when Mykah was sleeping, because he wakes up at the slightest sound in his room...a light sleeper like his father. So now it's in the living room, and that also allows me to be on the computer and interact with the family at the same time. A much better location for it!

So now I'm off to do some quick cleaning because my father and his girlfriend are coming over. It's weird, because I've been so mad at him, and now I'm having them over for dinner. I guess part of it is guilt because Dad was there for me when I needed to go to the Douglas Hospital...then he called every day for a week to check and see how I was doing. The other part of it has to do with the kids; Zach knows his Poppy, and asks for him sometimes. Things are so complicated sometimes!

Shoot me, please!

Okay, so my house still looks like a tornado blew through...no, make that a hurricane! My "get up and go" got up and went...where? I don't know, but it's not here. Well, I've made some headway with the toys, and I've managed to pick up most of the little pieces of kleenex that were lovingly shredded by Mykah and our ever faithful pup Goliath. They had a blast doing it, so I guess I can't really begrudge them of that.

Now the kids are running off some energy outside, and that means that I won't get much else done since they need pretty much constant supervision. I might manage a few quick things in the kitchen since I can keep an eye on them from there. At this point, if I can manage to get the kitchen table truly cleaned up (I mean without just transferring the junk pile to another surface) then I might actually feel as if I accomplished something.

Domestic Goddess I am not...yet.

Well, right now my home certainly doesn't look as if a Domestic Goddess lives here. Somehow a tornado blew through my kitchen again! I really want to get it cleaned up, but Zachy insists on helping (a request I can't really refuse for his good upbringing), but of course at 3.5 years old, his help creates more mess...right now he's washing the unbreakable dishes, and doesn't want any help at all. I imagine that in about 2 minutes I'll be mopping up puddles on the kitchen floor too...now, whether those puddles are created from Zach's diswashing, or my tears over not accomplishing anything has yet to be seen.

Hopefully he will lose interest in the dishes fairly quickly and move on to something else...if I could actually get him interested in picking up toys, that would be great....yeah, right, and pigs will fly too, right?!

Tiring Day...

I am absolutely exhausted...from the stress of having to drive downtown on a weekday, from the stress of having to hold my screaming son still while they took blood from his arm... Hospital visits are always exhausting! Mykah had a check-up for his eyes, to make sure that they are okay since occasionally one eye gives the appearance of wandering. But all is well, and his eyes and vision are absolutely fine.
At the same time I took him up to the blood clinic to get his blood tests done for the Gastro and Genetics clinics... well, he kicked and screamed...he's a pretty strong 18-month old. To make matters worse, he was so stressed that the first vein collapsed and the technician had to find another vein... it took me plus 3 technicians to get the necessary sample. Well, at least it's over and done with.

Misc. Updates

I did my BOS dedication ritual in class on Saturday, and it went very well. I think I have a "magical voice" for working ritual etc, because I felt my voice resonating in my body in a way I've never felt it do before. So last night, I started copying the ritual into my BOS...my first entry...I'm so happy.

I've also started working on my Herbal Grimoire, and oh boy it's going to be long. I'm just taking notes for now, and keeping my eye open for herbs I recognize for drying. I haven't decided on a format yet. I might go with a pre-bound artists book, but I kind of like the idea of having it in a binder too... I'm worried that in a binder, the pages would rip out (with the extra weight of the dried samples). Well, either way, I know I'm going to have to go with heavy paper (maybe that will solve the ripping problem).

The weather looks nice today! I'm meeting a friend for lunch, and then I'm going to see if I can get my eyes checked. I've been having some problems with my glasses (probably has more to do with the lense being scratched), but I think my prescription has changed again. So I need to get these lenses changed either way, and I really want contact lenses for the summer. Contact lenses allow me to be able to see when swimming, wear cheap sunglasses (I have a nasty habit of breaking or losing my sunglasses)...not to mention that I find I can see more clearly with contacts than I do with glasses. I think I'll get the regular (wash, put away, wear again) kind, but I also want to get disposibles for swimming and stuff (that way I don't have to freak if I lose one).

Feeling better today...

I'm feeling better today; I think it helps that my best friend in the whole world is coming for a visit tonight. Her BF was supposed to come too, but he's tired (working 2 jobs), so he's staying home and it's just going to be us girls tonight. Her BF is a great guy, but it's been waaaaaay too long since we've had girl time. Will attempt to get the kids in bed early so we can have time together without children.

I am feeling particularly lonely today. I was even going to call a babysitter to come over just so I would have company other than the kids...but that didn't work, because their phone number has changed, and my neighbour (who would have the new number) is not home.

I hate it when I start feeling like this. It scares the shit out of me. Why is nobody at home tonight? Nobody can come over and I really don't want to be alone!!!

My dearest Loki...

Sadly on Tuesday, we had to make the decision to put my beloved kitty, Loki, to sleep. He was starting to develop multiple health problems, and with his anxiety disorder, it would have been more cruel to him to try and treat the health problems. I'll miss you, my big fur-ball.

How the hell did I get to be 30?

Where does the time go? It seems like I just turned 18 and then,...bang... here I am at 30. Oh well, can't complain too much (except I think I need new glasses...again). Mom got me some really nice place-mats (of which I previously had none), and an awesome pill-case to keep track of my daily meds...combined with the palm pilot I can be sure to never miss a pill again.

Gilles got me a smart-ass card that was actually very funny...my gift was my beautiful roll-top computer desk.

Grumblings...

Please bear with me as I really need to get this out of my system.

Stepped on the scale this morning to see where I'm at...grumble...I'm 15lbs heavier than I was a month ago. Now, they warned me that this medication could cause weight gain, but that's friggin' ridiculous!!!!! I'm rather pissed!

To top it all off, my period is 10 days late, (so I'm probably really bloated too). I had to go get a pregnancy test just to be sure (on my doctor's advice) despite the fact that I knew it would most likely be negative what with Gilles' "snip, snip" almost 2 years ago. So of course the test was negative, and now I don't know whether to laugh or cry, because I really would love to have more children, and my hopes got up just for that fraction of a second, but it was enough...oh well it's better off this way, because pregnancy with the meds I'm on would be very bad...I'd have to go off the meds...so that would mean they'd just have to lock me up for 9 months in a straight-jacked and padded cell... hmmm... okay, I'm happy again.

We're officially in trouble...

Mykah has finally started pulling up to standing on some of the furniture. Now, as much as I know this means "trouble" it is also very much of a relief that he's finally doing it since he'll be 18 months at the end of June. He still doesn't like to put much weight on his right foot, though, and I don't blame him. when he stands on that foot, only the underside of the arch touches the ground (the heel and his toes are slightly off the ground). He lifts the foot as if it's painful to put weight on it...or else it just feels really strange. But he's pulled himself up to standing a couple of times, and he sits back down all by himself. I'm actually very excited about it.