I am feeling particularly lonely today. I was even going to call a babysitter to come over just so I would have company other than the kids...but that didn't work, because their phone number has changed, and my neighbour (who would have the new number) is not home.

I hate it when I start feeling like this. It scares the shit out of me. Why is nobody at home tonight? Nobody can come over and I really don't want to be alone!!!